They make us
gag think of positive changes and newfound happiness. A sort of rebirth dance we do each year. A restart for our lives.
We tend to make the goals lofty like “I’m going to be organized this year” or “I’m going to get in the best shape of my life.”
Awesome goals of course.
But each year many of us tend to start there, and end up at “I cleaned out my linen closet” and “I bought a new workout outfit.”
I like the whole resolution idea, even if it is often more symbolic than realistic. I’ve made many typical resolutions over the years, but this year I started thinking more of inward ones: ones that I can’t post on Instagram or Pinterest or Facebook or Twitter and can’t really prove to anyone but myself.
Over the last few months, and especially the last few weeks, I’ve noticed that I’ve been feeling an unrest and lack of peace in my life. Workouts definitely help with anxiousness or worry. It makes use of hormones your body produces and suppresses to deal with stress. Super. I’m a fan of the the destress-with-activity idea.
But after the workout is over, and I’m left alone with myself, I realize something’s not right. I’m not going to share my personal faith – although I do have my own beliefs – but I know that when you keep coming back to the same issue, there has to be a root. Otherwise you’re just temporarily removing it by the stems and it grows back with a vengeance, annoying the crap out of you and robbing you of your peace.
I did some inward inventory and I uncovered that for me, the source of my unrest is worry. Worry schmurry! All I need to do is STOP worrying right? It must be true because I read that in a quote on Twitter. In fact, I might have even tweeted it myself. But as it is with all things, it’s easier said than done.
So as boring as it sounds, my resolution this year is simply to get a handle on worry.
I could organize my stuff, start a new workout program, eat super clean, tell you 50 ways I gave back, how I’m going to be a better wife, mother, and friend, and post it for all to see; but I think I’ll just quietly work through stuff and hopefully become a better human being. Don’t get me wrong, I’m inspired by the success of others, but this one time, keeping it more on the down-low felt more appropriate. Except for right now when I’m telling you about it.
What I’d love to know is if you, dear reader, have inner resolutions that you quietly (aka don’t post and mostly keep to yourself ) have made and found success. Did working on it all by yourself, in your own time, prove successful? Or have you found that you like/need/want the outside encouragement and feel that’s the only way to success?